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IT IS NOT MY FAULT Eirini (Kat) Tzioumis, 2013 I stumbled and fell `til I couldn't walk at all. My arms got weaker, my right hand a claw. Going out is all anxiety and doubt, Never knowing when bladder or bowels will give out. Did I mention the trouble with my eyes, Even the familiar I don't recognise. Exhausted and tired I can't stay awake, Night time insomnia, trauma I can't shake. I wake each morning with a curse, groans and tears For the dreadful realisation that I'm still here Though I have good friends that visit and care Still it's 24/7 pain and fear. It's not my fault my body's a mess. It's not my fault I live with MS. No surprises I don't want this semblance of life Just regret I was never a mother or wife. Never finished uni or had a career, Never danced at parties or got to drink beer. No boyfriends or lovers, no chance for hangovers, No driving a car, or life in countries afar. All those things one takes for granted All those things that I have wanted I have had none and so I cry "I hate my life" ­ do you understand why? But I'm hanging on, I'm still here with my life so lonely and full of despair You get one life and though mine is shit I'm too scared to put an end to it. It's not so much that I want to die I want to live, I want to fly. If wishes could cure Then I'd have one for sure But holding to hope just prolongs the agony And the pointless question "Why did it have to be me?" For the pain and frustration you have shared with me Thanks again and forgive my refrain It's not my fault my body's a mess It's not my fault I have MS So when the time comes please let me go Not that there's much left as you well know. I love you and thank you for the time that we shared, Remember the good times and the pain I'll be spared. And if thinking of me makes your life seem the better, Then I'm happy to do that from the hereafter.