Mercury,
January/February 1999 Table of Contents
I'm
fickle. I'm a tah-rah-rah-boom-dee-aye, slogan-flinging, hoist your
banner high ("What does it say?"), let's climb on the bandwagon
kind of guy. Well, not usually, but I have my moments. And now my
colors fly proudly: red, white, and NASA meatball blue.
Last
night I celebrated having finished marking my last set of examinations
for the semester by sitting down in front of the television and
cracking some pecans. Shuttling between "Animals That Kill for Fun"
and "Astrology: Science of the Future," I came upon live coverage
of construction of the International Space Station. And I was hooked.
For
the past decade my thoughts and comments regarding the Station have
echoed those of many in the astronomy community: What kind of science
can really be pursued on the Station? What falls under the rubric
"microgravity research"? It's just about jobs, right? And why can't
the Station at least mimic the circular grace of Kubrick's great
wheel station? I know, I know. The year 2001 is just around the
corner, but we've a ways to go to reach the cinematic visions that
make us want tomorrow here today.
Assembly of the International Space Station has begun.
Image courtesy of NASA.
Those
images of the astronauts working silently in that cold emptiness
just a few hundred miles above excited me again. On a hot July night
in 1969, my parents and I watched something I had dreamed of for
what seemed like all of my seven years. It was past my bedtime,
but there we all sat, willing the VHF fuzz away so that we could
better see history. A shadow, motion, "Yes, that's him," and then
Neil Armstrong's rattling announcement from a world away. I don't
remember what any of us said, but I do remember the excitement and
ache of desire that followed me to bed that night - somebody like
me was out there, and he was telling me (forget everyone else) that
I was there, too.
A while after
that I remember scouring magazines for photographs from the mission.
Anything I could find went in a huge scrapbook, and I came across
an interesting picture in Life or some such magazine. In the background
was a television set, and seated in front of it were men wearing
what looked like long robes, their heads covered in round mounds
of cloth. These people were from a different place than I, but they
glowed gray-blue just as I had that night. They sat leaning into
their television, the wash of photons possibly carrying some little
bit of energy from those lunar explorers so far away. The world
was smaller to me when I saw that photograph, and I felt linked
to those older men. We had been joined, if only for the briefest
time, in something larger than ourselves.
Since then
I've had similar rushes - at a Russian-American handshake in mated
Apollo-Soyuz crafts, at probe flybys of bloated worlds that could
swallow mine whole, and at images from the Hubble Space Telescope.
All these emotional surges, placing me with the spacecraft or astronaut,
have come from NASA. And now I succumb again. Sure, the Station
is about jobs, and sure, all types of science will not be possible
on the platform, but it's a step up, a permanent uplift out and
into space.
Almost everything
we've accomplished or attained in our extraterrestrial investigations
could have been done by automatons, and some might argue, should
have been done by them. But that omits the human element, seems
to me, that excitement that blends us into a smooth continuum of
emotion and feeling. Something bigger than we compels us to face
it as a "we."
All
those years ago I remember doing some quick ciphering and finding
that I would be 39 years old in 2001. Spinning cities in space,
colonies on the Moon, and me out there somehow. Either in the flesh,
my flesh, or in the flesh, that of humanity. We may be a little
behind, but I am excited, bleary-eyed, and a seven year old again
in my heart.
James
C. White II
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